Haikus | 12

You chose Brooklyn bridge
Like I choose you as my bridge
You're my #andwhysea

Haikus | 11

I still love seeing
How you treat others kindly
You are my (re)treat

Syncing Ship

The more
that you tell me you love me
the less
that I can bring myself to tell you it back

I realized
that though we think in sync often
we do not
match in one way which matters most

I hate
the pain produced in me
when you
speak uninhibited

I am wearied
by your words when you are tired, annoyed, impatient
each time
you expect me to excavate your expression

You are happy
to learn and to grow with me
I am disappointed
to find this flippant flaw in you

You will
unknowingly and unintentionally
hurt me
again and again and again

I love
when you tell me you love me
but I
cannot tell you it back, right now

Haikus | 10

L is for your laugh
Sexy and so scarcely heard
When it's me and you

Haikus | 9

Bingsu, book talk, MOD
Communication is key
How to lovingly?

Haikus | 8

A glass of white wine
Anxiety disappears
Thanks for being you

Haikus | 7

You are number one
And when the clock strikes midnight
Mine intimately

Haikus | 6

Talk it out, don't fight
Laugh, sing, harmonize, slow dance
Under the moonlight

Things I Never Felt

The flutters of the heart
like butterfly wings in flight
traveling from one bloom to the next
stopping momentarily
to savor each second
whispering gently I am blessed

The longings of the heart
like the waves on the constant coastline
coming in to hug the edge of the land
with a rush
as I move to high tide
exclaiming giddily I love you

The aches of the heart
like the sting of a most vicious wasp
its venom wavering in and out
as shame spreads
when I've let you down
screaming emptily I am sorry

These are the things I never felt
until I was with you

Haikus | 5

Hand and hand in mine
Your warmth, dreams, our memories
Always in my mind

Haikus | 4

So often I feel
I could not love more than this
Then, with you, I do

Haikus | 3

Bacon maple bars
Church, children, and driving cars
Congraduations

Haikus | 2

One month went by fast
Feeling limitless each day
Up and up in time

Haikus | 1

When I stopped longing
I began feeling what had
Been there all along

Another Haiku

Feelings harbored here
Have been realized and returned
Ready to be reeled

The Haiku, Part Three

I jumped to the end
A story not yet written
Love is letting go

The Haiku

Say, what's in a name?
Identifying as mine
My mind is on you

Down

Now this is going to sound cliche - actually, as much as it can possibly get - and it's going to sound like my mom's opposite way of speaking - where she calls a person's actions amazing, when she really means ridiculous, but it's amazing to think that at one point we actually knew each other well. It's hard to believe that there was a time when we could both see potential for a lasting friendship.
             It began like perfection; everything clicked right in place.  And in just a short time, you really did change my life, greatly. Who I am today, I owe much to you, and I'm grateful. But there seemed to be a sudden turn of events, because slowly, everything faded away. But I wasn't expecting it to all come down down down to this. Because it seems that now, we're just a couple, of strangers again.
             I wish I could explain what happened and how and why, but then I would be able to explain everything, from the hopeful beginnings to the hopeless endings. And I can't even begin to describe how these things changed before my eyes and beyond what my mind ever expected.
             I wish I could say we never even were friends, because that's exactly how it feels right now, but I can't, because my life today, changed extraordinarily, is direct proof that at one moment in eternity, you cared about me and touched my soul. I won't say goodbye to my memories, but it's about time I officially said my goodbyes to you. I hope you find who you were meant to be, like you did for me.

Written for www.writersnotfighters.tumblr.com

Nightmares under the Nightsky

I tried to back away, farther and farther, but it was no use. The overwhelming sounds grew louder and louder, drew nearer and nearer, until all I could think about was the loud crash that would sound when the great noise caught up to me to seal my imminent fate. And I gave up, a cry of fear, but I wasn’t even sure if I had made a sound at all, for there was no silence to break, only deafening noises that drowned out everything I had learned to say.
             And when I couldn’t speak, and when I thought I could no longer hear, a voice broke the chaos. Not a whisper, like mine, but a voice that was strong, reverberating, and articulate. And He said, “Child, wake up. Your nightmares are only as strong as your spirit is weak. My son already died to rescue you from the thief who wants to steal, kill, and destroy your heart, but I have already taken up your heart to give you life, and I will protect you from harm. You, young and beautiful one, are now flawless in my eyes. You are the crown of my creation and I just want to love and protect you, if only you will allow me. Fear no more, child. One day you will be reunited with me for eternity.”
             I opened my eyes and saw above me a blanket of stars, created by my Father. And below me the surface of the boat, and under that, an expanse of swaying water, created by my Father. And for the first time, I cried, tears of joy, that flowed into the sea. And the surface of the sea gently caught every shining star in its reflection, like a mirror of my Father’s beautiful love.

Written for www.writersnotfighters.tumblr.com

Just Friends

I think
you misunderstood
our relationship.

Maybe
you thought
I was getting over you.

But
what if
I was just never into you?

I'm so
sorry for
disappointing you.