I Met Autumn

I met Autumn today.
She greeted me with
open arms,
arms adorned by
sleeves of
brilliant color
that lit up
every single
sidewalk
and avenue
of life.

She said she would
stay for a while
and keep me company
before
Winter returned
to
my homeland.

And before
we parted ways
she sent me
a
refreshing breeze
that let my hair
fly loose
and lingered in my bones.

Forgetting Freedom

If only
it weren't so easy
to forget so often

If only

it weren't so difficult

to feel once more

the moment you
set me free,
unraveled my heart to see

 the instant you

gave me new life,

saved me from eternal strife

how beautiful
of a love
you have for me.

by captivating my once

dysfunctional heart of

stone.

Relishing Realism

Realness, rawness that I can feel
and genuineness against my fingernails.

Finding that the possibility
can become a reality.

Making the divide grow closer and closer
until all that remains is nothing supposed.

To satisfy my heart's desire
please don't relent the flames of your fire.

Beauty is when
you let yourself be truly your own again.

Swirling

Thoughts swirling
like a trillion plankton
caught in the current of
the ocean.

Forced by the will of the sea
to veer left
then right.

Travelling aimlessly
to another
nowhere.

Just Friends

I think
you misunderstood
our relationship.

Maybe
you thought
I was getting over you.

But
what if
I was just never into you?

I'm so
sorry for
disappointing you.

Oh Sweet Contrast

There's nothing worse

There's nothing better

than realizing

than discovering

the sinking truth

the exhilarating reality

that he has forgotten about you,

that he is thinking about you,

never really did care,

always really did cherish,

never noticed you.

always will love you.

Soul Deep

"You're so awkward."
             I used to hear that phrase, a lot. But that was years ago, three winters ago to be specific. Back when I wasn't comfortable at school, at home, at church, nor in my own skin. Awkwardness defined me, or at least that's what I was taught to think. I know my friends said it jokingly and the others around me said it through their actions, but to me it seemed to hold a certain truth. And that "truth" of awkwardness settled deep in the chambers of my heart. 
             But now, two summers passed, I can say with certainty that I've changed, I've discovered the essence of confidence. I've become selfless for the selfish, discovering that in helping others I in turn help myself. Above all, I don't want anyone else to believe the lie I believed. Who I truly am and who I was made to be is to use my past pain to help other's present pain.
            I believed in the depths of my heart that awkward was what defined me. When all this time, that lie was only trying to cover the truth that I have a lot of love to share with people. And finally, I have shared that love genuinely, wholeheartedly, without holding back. Yet, still after months of silence, it comes back.
             "You're so awkward."
             And it's hard, it really is. I can't keep ignoring the lies. That little phrase - so distant, yet so familiar - flutters restlessly in my heart and still cuts soul deep.